Steadiness

Nov. 12th, 2011 11:27 pm
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Liam woke up today feeling... different. A good sort of different. The unnatural sort of different.

He feels like he's regained his equilibrium, his sanity, his mental stability, for the first time since he revived from three weeks of death. Really, he feels more steady than he has in a long time, even before that.

And given that it's the unnatural kind, he knows it's too good to be true. There's no telling how long it will last.

But while he's feeling up to it, he knows there is someone who desperately needs him to be stable, and it's her he goes to find.

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Date: 2011-11-15 01:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


It's my fault! It's my fault! I should never have been in the attic alone... not knowing the strange things that were up there...

Date: 2011-11-15 05:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


But it was in me... It was in me, or surely the ring couldn't have made me do it.



But I would never have wanted to hurt you. I would never have wanted to hurt Break...

Date: 2011-11-15 06:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


I think I would've preferred learning Chinese...

Date: 2011-11-15 07:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com
You're right... I suppose it truly could affect anyone.



Oh, Liam, I would not wish this on anyone...!

Date: 2011-11-17 02:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


It remains, though. Whatever I would've done... What can it mean against what I did?

I killed you...

Date: 2011-11-17 06:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


You have such faith in me... I hope that I can come to live up to it, again.

Date: 2011-11-17 09:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


When it's over.... ... I hope the Mansion lets you remember today.

Date: 2011-11-19 06:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com
It would be lovely if it did...

Date: 2011-11-21 07:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

I hope you do discover one... If the Will of the Mansion is so determined to treat us as playthings, she can at least provide us with the means to treat ourselves...

Date: 2011-11-23 02:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com
I am grateful.



We maimed him...

Date: 2011-11-23 06:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


Liam... Jack was not bespelled.

Date: 2011-11-23 08:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


He isn't like the other Jacks... He's ill, he... He was afraid of how close you and I had gotten. And Break and I.

Date: 2011-11-25 11:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com


He was afraid. You know that it isn't easy to think clearly when you're afraid.



Please, try to understand his history. Everyone he loved, before coming here, abused him--more terribly than I think any of us will ever fully know. He doesn't understand what you and I, or Break and I have. I think he's only just beginning to understand what he and I have, but he is learning. He wouldn't have taken the ring from me, he could not have been there for me as he has, if he weren't...

Date: 2011-11-27 08:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com
I don't know, any more...

He won't come after you again. He won't.

Date: 2011-11-29 01:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com
Because I will talk to him. Make him promise.



I won't be in danger. Please, you must let me go.

Date: 2011-11-29 08:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smallkindnesses.livejournal.com
He will, if he makes it to me.



You have comforted me... But the Mansion takes everything away, don't you see? It waits for us to care about someone or something. Then, it uses it to toy with us, and then it takes it.



... Perhaps you are not the only one who needs time.

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